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God loves the Church. God also loves the World. when the Church neglects the World, God is disappointed. when the World rejects the Church, He is not surprised.  ~JKS

i have been writing for years now on how the Church is neglecting its duties, on how we’ve become sidetracked, on how we’ve evolved into a machine as a result of our insecurity and fear of our own humanity. i could go point for point on how we’ve gone off from His original plan or even more importantly strayed from His heart, but instead, i’d like to expound on why i love the Church.

the Church is my mother. she nursed me from when i was just a babe and she taught me as best she could. the Church is where i learned of frailty. the Church is where i learned of my deep need for God. the Church is where i discovered pride. the Church taught me the Word of God. the Church taught me the law. the Church told me i needed a Savior. the Church outsourced me to inspirational self-help books, charity organizations, and the Holy Spirit. the Church instilled in me the importance of fellowship and accountability and then ostracized me without a single conversation. even still, i love her deeply.

the Church is my mother. she has her favorites. she’s busy in the kitchen, avoiding the “living” room. sometimes she’s the hit of the party, all smiles and hips swinging, avoiding the tasks assigned. she has high hopes for me, but is overwhelmed by my need. she lets me leave, relieved that i am no longer her responsibility, somewhat saddened that she was unable to fix me. the Church is torn… wanting to see redemption, but not willing to give up all that she has dreamt and manufactured. she took the path of good intentions and ended up a million miles from home. even still, i love her deeply.

the Church is a bride in waiting. the Church is a fiance in preparation. the Church has fired the wedding planner and burned bridges with the chosen wedding party. the bride has taken on the production of the ceremony and neglected that which makes it sacred. she has lost sight of the Groom. but it can be regained. hope is not lost. the Groom loves deeply. the Groom loves without repentance. and beneath her insecurity lives the bride He envisioned… a bride with a heart soft like His, a generous bride, a strong bride, a diligent bride, a healthy bride… clothed in a beautiful white gown, without spot or wrinkle, without brand name or corporate affiliation.

He is patient.

He is good.

He is forgiving.

He is tender towards His bride.

He hasn’t given up on the Church and neither should we.

i have determined to love her deeply.



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  1. great words, layout and images. really, really dope.

      • JuliaKate
      • May 18th, 2010

      Thanks for your feedback Anthony. I really appreciate it:)

    • Irrinyhydrind
    • May 25th, 2010

    Just want to say what a great blog you got here!
    I’ve been around for quite a lot of time, but finally decided to show my appreciation of your work!

    Thumbs up, and keep it going!


  2. I didn’t know whether to weep, shout amen, applaud or what….so I just took a deep breath. Friend, oh my word what an understanding you have for this bride, this body, this Church. I’m in awe reading this post & I love the way you share. It’s so raw, yet elegant.

      • JuliaKate
      • January 25th, 2011

      thank you thank you thank you… i often feel it is so difficult to get that message across of my deep love for the Church & my understanding of His love and intentions towards us, The Church. it settles my heart to know you heard that.

  3. beautifully written sister. it’s ironic that someone who loves the church so much consistently gets tagged as as someone who does not. i get thrown into that boat time and again. your sometimes seemingly critical viewpoint of the church is not from a place of distain, but rather a place of compassion and longing…longing for the bride’s self-realization. like i tell brooklyn…hurt people hurt people.

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